Do you believe in it?
Could you live it?
Can you trust it?
"Don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens - the main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away."
- John Steinbeck, author.
Let me fill you in on what has been going on in my life.
But causing emotions that I can't control.
Yeah, the strong independent woman has finally been beaten. Can you believe that?
Do you ever think about your high school crushes? This is where the story begins...... Thirty years ago in high school.
There was a boy. A very intriguing boy. A boy that caught my attention from a distance. He was such a mystery. He carried himself with pride, and also carried the attitude, "I don't care what people think about me." An attitude that I longed for. So I just sat back and watched him, longed to be like him, and was totally intrigued by him.
He had the look of a rebel, a hellion, a trouble maker. So the truth is, I was kind of scared of him. I continued to keep my distance. But there was a secret place in my heart that screamed, "I would love to be with him!"
This my friends is the High School Senior, Johnie Clark, Jr.
See........INTRIGUING!! A MYSTERY!! A REBEL!!
We both completed high school going our own separate ways, stumbling through relationships, marriages, and loneliness.
We have been connected on Facebook for years, commenting every once in a while on each other's posts. Small talk. Old friends from high school kind of thing.
Now lets fast forward thirty years to the present. Here is my story. This is what I felt with my heart. Through my own eyes and feelings. Love at first sight.
I drove back north from Columbus to visit my oldest daughter. When I visit with my daughter I try and keep my Facebook shut off. But for some reason on Sunday I opened my Facebook on my phone to find this reply message:
Johnie Clark Jr.
Morning, yes it was nice. I hope you feel good when you get up lol. Don't by shy give me a yell anytime
I will do just that.
And our conversation turned into a Sunday lunch invite. On my way back to Columbus I stopped by to see an old high school chum to have conversation and reminisce. But this is what really happened:
Arrangements were made for Sunday lunch. I agreed to stop by Johnie's house. And the strangest thing happened on my way there. The closer I got to his house the more butterflies I was feeling in the pit of my stomach. I truly thought I was going to have to pull over and vomit. My heart was racing and I was finding it hard to breathe. Yes, it was that bad! I kept questioning my symptoms. What the hell is wrong with me? I was having flashbacks of watching him from a distance thirty years ago.
Once I got to Marion I couldn't find Johnie's house. I parked and called his cell. He asked me where I was at, and then he told me to park at the tallest building in Marion and he would walk to meet me. As I was watching in my rear-view mirror I saw a salt and pepper haired man walking toward my car. I knew it was Johnie! He still carried himself with pride and confidence. That high school boy that I remembered so well. I stepped out of my car and this is what happened: We hugged with a quick kiss, and as we came together our hearts exploded. As God as my witness, I heard it! I felt it! And then Johnie said, "Oh my God, you are still the most beautiful girl in the whole entire school!"
Our date turned into lunch at Carrabba's, dessert at the North Market in Columbus, a container of goat cheese, and a movie (Gravity). I didn't get home until 10 that night. We spent most of the day confessing the feelings we had for each other in high school. Since our first date we have been together every weekend. And sometimes during the week. We live an hour from each other. You drive thirty and I'll drive thirty. We meet mid week for dinner.
Is it possible?
Love at first sight?
I do believe it is.
I am experiencing it.
I am feeling it.
And I am falling.
I am no longer intrigued from a distance.
I have the mystery man in my arms.
The brick walls around my heart and soul have crumbled.
The strong independent woman who thought she was going to die alone has been broken.
This is Johnie Clark, Jr. today.
Along with me in his arms.
The way it should be.
SAVING THE BEST FOR LAST......